Do It Anyways: Tell The Truth
One of the biggest lessons I learned from my deliverance was to be honest. Completely…. No need to try to hide or try to make your story cleaner, or try to make sure it fits the mold of reality for everyone involved. Your life is yours. You know the facts of your life and whether it is believable or not, your story deserves to be told just as it happened.
From the moment I told my old pastor that I wanted to go through deliverance, it became like a game. I was serious about that decision, but I wasn’t being honest with her. The first time I tried to tell her that I couldn’t remember most things, she immediately rejected what I was saying. In my heart, I felt like no one would help me if I stuck to that story, so I came up with a strategy: Play along until I get what I want, then tell everyone the whole truth.
This is a mistake I regret making to this day. I lost credibility in the end, was humiliated, and honestly wasted people’s time. Fear was my motivation, but it’s not an excuse.
No matter who believes you, when the truth is your lived experience, no matter how unbelievable it is, you must stand on it.
So, during my last session of deliverance, my pastor at the time instructed me to bring the main thing that gave me witchcraft powers so that it would be destroyed and I would be completely free.
This was the beginning of my undoing, because the truth was that I remembered nothing. I saw nothing. I made multiple confessions using my dreams, context clues, and my own personal habits and traits as a guide. But, in truth, I only saw myself astral projecting once…
How could I explain things then? I went back and forth, bringing miscellaneous items to the church and each time it was a flop.
At one point, I asked her to come to my home to help me. Mind you, I was still trying to manipulate the situation. In my heart, I figured she could walk around and point out what this item might be and then I would still get delivered without having to come clean….
When it comes to God, the Bible tells us that he knows our hearts (Psalms 44:21). This means that he’s aware of your deepest, unspoken desires, secrets, thoughts, etc. So, you can’t come to him in pretense. He already knows.
You have to be honest: tell him the good, the bad and the ugly as you know it and let him begin to do the work necessary to fix it all. Whether it’s to change your mind about the situation; or to help you grow, etc. He decides how the story goes when you come to him for help.
So, as I was saying, on the last day, I brought more miscellaneous items. This time, it was waist beads. When she burned the waist beads I brought, nothing happened. She was fed up and understandably so.
I made one more attempt and brought a suitcase with a silver belt that I loved wearing…. My rationale was: what have I been holding on to all these years for no good reason? But, by then, the jig was up.
She called in one more witness, told her how she had seen me as an old woman with one of my kids spiritually walking to the church and she was tired of my witchcraft. She had a duty as a shepherd to protect the people of the church who actually wanted to know God.
The young lady she was speaking to, was just somberly nodding. She never said anything or made faces… After that, she told me to leave with my children. I tried to plead with her, but it was too late. She made up her mind and I had to go.
As I mentioned in Part 4 of my “The Day My World Fell Apart” series, this was the beginning of the very journey I’m on now.
On this rebuilding journey, you won’t always be proud of the choices you’ve made. But it’s part of your story. Don’t deny those dark, unpleasant parts of your past. Accept the error of your ways so you can learn the lessons you need to and move forward with your life. It’s easier to live a life where you’re honest, than to pretend to be what you’re not, because in the end, the truth always comes to light.
Would you rather stand tall knowing you didn’t try to change the truth or have to hide because the truth has come out and it’s wildly different from the things you’ve been saying?
Your name and integrity are worth salvaging and maintaining.
